12/02/2010 Friday night

Friday was one of those days that I could easily go off the rails with my eating plan. First of all I had to speak to my boss about a pay rise, I find this sort of thing very hard to do as I was not sure how he would react so I thought about it all day and it just got worse and worse in my head. In the end I did ask and he is going to look into it, so it was not as bad as I thought it would be I still think he was not that pleased about me asking though.

So I get home and decide to make my favourite soup, carrot and coriander, its all going well I am slicing up the carrots in the food processor when the damn thing breaks and the carrots are covered in shards of plastic, I am tempted at this point to eat something. So I start all over again I now have to chop the carrots by hand, I get them all done and they are cooking down nicely when all of a sudden there is a burning smell and the carrots have stuck and burnt to the bottom of the pan, I really want to binge at this point. But I manage to control myself clean out the pan and I do manage to save most of the carrots so in the end I do finally cook the soup. So I do eat in the end but I have my home made soup and a pitta, its at this point I notice the soup is very spicy and hot so I check the label on the chilli powder I find have bought extra hot by mistake, oh well.

I know this might seem like a bit of a ramble and not very interesting but this is the stupid type of incident that in the past would have had me eating massive amounts of food, so I guess that having a year on WW has taught me to to be able to control this urge to eat when I am frustrated or upset.